Made of Love
All my life, I have loved Deeply Fully With my entire being
When I was 15, you told me I was wrong
“You’re too affected by this”
“It’s not a big deal”
“It’s just a game”
(The game of baseball, which was my source of life energy, the fuel for my soul
And the first deep love that taught me everything I know)
So I stopped talking about it
To you, to friends, to everyone
I understood that nobody would understand
So I kept it inside
But my love is too big to hold inside
And I was not wrong
You were wrong.
But still to this day, your words persist
And I struggle to talk about
The things that are most important to me
Because I know that like you, people won’t understand
They will tell me that I’m wrong
That I should stop, or turn it down
That I should love less (as if I could)
And still that love grows inside me
Until it can’t help but explode out
And only now am I finding my people
Who understand how deep it goes
Who understand that even though
It may not look like what society teaches us “love” is
It is still love
And it is a deeper love than most people will ever experience.
All my life, I have loved this deeply.
People tell me it’s too much
Life experience tells me it’s not enough
And still I keep loving
Loving hard, loving strong, loving deep
It’s all I know
Maybe it’s because my brain is wired differently
But it is the deepest, core, defining part of what makes me me.
It is my greatest strength
It’s what I have to offer
It is my superpower
And I love it
No matter what anyone says
I will continue to love
Hard, and strong, and deep
Even if it’s too much
Even if it’s not enough
Even if people understand
Even if people don’t
This is when I feel most fully myself
This is what I return to when I’m floundering
To feel like me again
This is what I can do, and give, and be
This is what I love most about myself
My favorite thing about me
And I will never stop.
This is my superpower
The best part of me
It is what defines me
All my life, I will love
Deeply
Fully
With my entire being
This is who I am.